Getting Clean Before God
May 01
Posted: under Teaching, Testimony.
Participated in a CLEANSING STREAM retreat this last weekend. It’s all about spiritual warfare, getting rid of the spirits that hold us back.
I went in with mixed feelings, not too sure about all this… Came out with some mixed feelings as well, but with improved clarity about my connection to God… and a desire to hear His voice in the next call on my life… so I guess it worked!
Yes, I believe the Lord can heal, and that demons exist. I just don’t know if they come out on command by the truckload while people are lined up talking about it. Some of the prayer partners provided at the retreat were very good. Others were not well suited to what they were trying to do… IMHO…
BTW: Where is the Oil in the bible, for annointing, yes.. for spirit warfare? I need to find that.
But - don’t get me wrong. I did have a powerful experience.
Jesus often named the demons before he cast them out of people. In this way we need to become aware of which spirits are influencing our lives… call them by name, and then speak new truths louder….
Spirits of rejection and anger had worked on me since the end of my first marriage. I gave ground to Satan, until a root of bitterness had formed. I thought I had dealt with this, and forgiven my ex…. but at the retreat there was a time of prayer when I could see that there was still something there. I felt led in the spirit to reach into my heart and remove any remaing seed of rejection. I wanted to remove all hurt and unforgiveness, and be completely clean on this count.
At the time of my divorce, for biblical cause, I felt like my one chance to have a perfect marriage, and therefore a perfect life before God when it comes to family, was ruined… My second marriage, if it ever took place, would be second place, second class…. I eventually got over this feeling, at least enough to find a helpfmeet who would help me raise my three children…. but there was a lasting scar…
At the Retreat, I called to mind the truth of Forgetting what lies behind and pressing onward toward the prize of my holy calling in Christ Jesus. Today is my only life. This marriage I am in, is the only one I have and the only one God sees.
So, I reached into my heart, in a vision, and removed a seed of rejection placed there by a person who has left my life… This seed seemed small at first, but as I pulled it seemed to run all the way down my body, and even down my leg into my toes… wow…!
As I regarded what had been pulled out, which first seemed sort of small and white and weak, it turned black and gnarly in my hand, and I saw what a large black twisted ugly root of bitterness had been inside me. Then this thing grew a face. It was like the movie ALIEN with a dragon face, snarling, dripping slime off it’s fangs…. it floated in the air in front of me, seething and writhing and menacing.
In the vision, I spoke the word - JESUS and thrust my hand at this thing, like a spear…
IT CRUMBLED TO DUST and I was free of the root of bitterness.
The spirit of rejection holds no more power over me!
