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The spirit life is not all rainbows and roses… Sometimes it is about keeping up one’s “walk” or maintaining appearances for the sake of those who look to you for testimony. Sometimes it is about suffering and merely surviving. This has been called the Dark Night of the Soul.
Huge victories are won by persevering in faith even if appearances cannot be maintained during the battle. Believers emerge from the other side of such experiences deeper, stronger, more fully prepared for some special calling or mission or work.
On the following - I wonder - do you think of this as a failed spiritual condition or one that is standing up against an attack from the other side?
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Drowning again
in torrential emotion
unable to breathe
dieing on the inside
But I always
make it look good
on the outside
and nobody knows…..
Crumbling again
with a smile
working hard
going nowhere
But I always
make it look good
on the outside
and nobody knows…..
Heartbeats still
yet all desires
are pointless
no power now
But I always
make it look good
on the outside
and nobody knows…..
Losing Faith
in a new day coming
when strength returns
and joy shall rise again
But I always
make it look good
on the outside
and nobody knows…..
C 2009 Brother Freeley Deals
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Comment by rebecca — February 16, 2010 @ 12:38 pm
Re: Dark night of the soul. Amen. Where would we truly be without the privelege of suffering. I wouldn’t trade my moments of anguish and despair for anything. The joy of experiencing God’s presence and revelations during my times of darkness are what have sustained me and enabled me to share and be of comfort to others in need. I think we can all relate to your poem as well.
Rebecca